saying hi

seeing this, just makes me laugh. there are more.. definitely.
and the spastic moments, seem glorious with her.
we tke pride in our actions, it is our forte- for they all mean something.
it somehow becomes how we are, feeling so comfortable with it, being so-- sophisticatedly retarded?
but i don't care, neither do i mind.
cos she walks with me to heaven.





not one, neither 2 nor 3.. but 4 of us.
we laugh..
we pose...
actions are funny...
but i, not a least bit think it's unglamourous or dumb.
pry into whats inside.
its e friendship, the fun embraced TOGETHER.
the one in black, QUEEN of Aunties u can call her.
the girl behind.. just say she 's almost one.
see whats beside? 2 spastic maidservants!!!



here, picture perfect, thats what i call.
we smile, yes..
but we cry together too.
this is love, where we care for whats inside, nth else.
where joy overflows...
with the essence of what we call sisterhood.
if life is gonna be tough, i fret not!
the four of them, they do not push me...
they take my hand, they listen, and through the swarmy marshes and pebbled paths, we look out, for one another.


if it's all but a life i lead.. it ain't easy.
when i look up, almost opening my mouth to voice a complaint, i picture God among e heavens, i shut my mouth.
when i look down, i see my feet. "yes, i can walk, run.. even cycle!"
my left, my right, around me- my love ones, my friends--- GOD'S CREATION.
i look up again, " thank you Father, for i am blessed".
i smile, i move on.
Fiona, don't despair, do not be troubled!
if it's all but a life i lead, it leads me to heaven.
not alone.
=D

i'm blessed. to conquer the PROMOS.

no!

so i unwrapped the dressing on my chin.....

aHhhhh!~ part of it seemed to have split! NOoo!!!
nNOOOOoooOOOO!
nononononoNONONonononoNONO!






i hope it'll be fine. :/

so it's me now huh? thanks to your friend SYING. wahaha.

1. If you could be stranded on an island with only one person, who would it be?
Jacinda. cos she would have Maria Kang with her. but, that would make 3 ppl on the island wouldnt it? ooh man! i guess i would choose kynaston? the most logical and practical person i could think of.2. Name the most disgusting thing you've ever seen someone do on Fear Factor.
eat some disgusting kinda organ or gut. if not dip there bodies into this barrel of vomit or whatsoever.
3. In real life?
hmmm. it would be seeing my sister pick up particles on the floor and eating them (even beetles) when she was young. (jacinda, i am NOT disgusting. its e wound that is!!!)
4. Poet/ArtistThat's tough. must i choose? I always believe that a poet is able to express every part of his senses in his poems, bringing out e deepest emotions that even by actions one would find it hard to express. which is amazing! whereas, for an artist, A picture paints a thousand words doesnt it? Both i would love.
5. If you had to choose, which of your five senses would you rather lose?
Perhaps smell. Then i wouldnt be able to smell those stinky rubbish and all. No way would i want to lose my sight, hearing, taste, touch. Well, even smell i would want to keep. The beauty of the senses aint it?God's gifts arent they? but if i were to choose, smell that is.6. Are you a morning person?
i'm ok with everything! i am a sleep-little person. yea, morning i love.
7. Starbucks/Coffee Bean?
Both? heeeeh.
8. What's the most expensive thing you've ever given your mom on Mother's Day?
with my artistic talent, i usually give her self-made cards made with love. ahha but well, perhaps it would some facial products.
9. Father's Day?
Think i bought a shaver once. which was ages ago.
10. Favourite seasons:
Spring, Summer, Autumn and Winter. Wouldnt wanna miss them! Singapore doesnt even have any. Saying singapore is summer all yr round, aint true either. its just monsoon.
11. Are you bored yet?
tts redundant.
12. Ever published something?
I'll be publishing my post in a few moments time. perhaps done some school newsletters and all.
13. Ever been skinny-dipping?
sounds funny, like something ducks do.
14. Are you superstitious?
nahh. perhaps only heed some.
15. Do you believe in true love?
oh yes.. love has gotta be true.
16. The best eye colour the opposite sex could have:
no preference. its love isnt it?
17. TV Series vs. Movies?
no preference. like both though. as i always indulge in them.
18. Celebrity crushes, if any:
Johnny Depp, Kwon Sang Woo, Hyun Bin, SUPERMAN!- brandon Routh. How about Zidane?
19. Can you type this sentence with your eyes closed?
Can i type this sentence with my eyes closed? I DID IT!
20. Now force-feed this to five people of your choice:
ivan, jasmine, gwen, Ben chew?, Manfred.

God's control

this week is a stark contrast of the previous week.
i couldn't believe it. pinch me, am i dreaming?

firstly, i lost my beloved phone.. apparently someone picked it up and kept it.
How can it be that people are so deprived of integrity these days?
Don't they at all comprehend how i feel?
ok, im making a dumb remark, but these people,they really make me furious!
well, what was really dumber was tt i argued with my mom abt buying a new phone.. the selfish and greedy me, just kept insisting on getting gd phones and i ended up throwing tantrums. boy was i naughty. but im glad i realised my mistake.. and tried to amend my mistakes the way God wanted me too.
so, fiona wrote a note to her mom, apologising. =) heeeh

so right.. what could happen nxt huh? the absence of my phone was already bad enough.
what happened was just such a coincidence, i don't blame her(my classmate)..
she swung the squash racquet right at my temple.. boy, the pain was throbbing.
i thot i suffered from some concussion thn.. i was wOooZy!

apparently mental pain and physical pain was inflicted on me.. it was already disastrous..
saturday came, the day i was enthusiastically waiting for!!
Pulau Ubin devo cum fun time + my date a.k.a teens grp fellowship!
it all started pretty well.. sparked off our journey with our first devo, singing and praying.
and we rented our bike upon reaching there.
was merrily riding my bike, although with some difficulties.. but i still managed to heave on, going up slopes and all.. nearly got knocked by a van though, reckless me!

it is till i reached that SLOPE.
clueless i was to how steep and long it was..
i just rode off..
the bike accelerated, naturally.
i tried braking, recalling that i needed to brake while going down slopes.
but it was too late!
my bike has complete gone berserk, off my control!
i muttered,"gosh, oh no. oh my gosh."
and there was silence.
in my mind, i thot," ok, i'll fall."
and in a split second, *SMACK*
i fell flat on the pebbled path.
rather oblivious to what was going on, only feeling acute pain on my limbs, danny pulled me up.
blood was dripping incessantly down my chin. *phew, luckily not my braces!*
felt woozy again..
i knew it wasnt a small injury.....
using martin's towel to press on my wound, i walked back to the first aid corner where the policemen attened to me.
how comical the first aider was!
i had fun in fact! =)
but well, im truly grateful to danny and peiling, chauffeuring me all e way to changi hospital, the nearest.
at the jetty, i became the talking point of the day. all the boat uncles were expressing their concern and gave some sound advices. ahaha. how cute!

evryone was flabbergasted upon seeing my chin laceration.
it was deep! utterly!
it resembled a smaller mouth on my chin.
3 cm wide.
and worst of all, i waited 4 hrs +++ to get my stitches done.
well, perhaps that's why i had a sticker with the word "patient" on it.

anyway, it was my first time having to stitch up a wound. and im sincerely touched by the care my brothers and sisters showered upon me..
but i thot, it wasn't scary cos God was with me.
i knew God protected me, if not things could've been worst!
Thank u God for providing me with tt ounce of strength and that wonderful grp of companions who cared. =)

as much as this week wasn't the best..
i knew God had a reason for mishaps to occur, and ive definitely learnt much frm it.
i am disabled now, but ive got my shepherd to lead me through the pastures and the valley of death.
so, why would i be afraid at all? =)

memorable stuff

where shld i start?? things have been so awesome for me i just feel so blessed by God.

firstly, really appreciate my mom and the teens. =) my birthday , although the 17th one was so special and memorable, and i owe it to all of you. thanks gazillions.
oh oh and also, 06S303. hee hee. indeed an amazing board u all created.. a board in which i can stare at for hours. ahaha. really sweet. =)
oh what can i say... filling me with bemusement, making me utterly oblivious to all your pranks on me. well, i forgive you GIRLS, smearing me with cream.. " I love you all" i'll say.. haha and i knw its the way you girls show how much u love me. its ALOT of love. indeed. and what's more, our superlicious supper @ CHOMP CHOMP. here my frens, a note to y'all..

Jacinda: my dear, as much as u tried to pretend u didnt knw my b'dae, i knw u would nvr forget. thanks for being my companion, my mirror, my output machine even. with you, i am a transparent sheet.. and i thank God for you in my life.
Sharon: as auntyish as u are, you have always been there for me, serving me and encouraging me. i'm touched sharon by your love for me and always showing me so much concern. and i love the times we share tgr.
Ivan: wOw my mango.. you've persevered, you gained so much knowledge and integrity , also faith to be who you are today.. and im utterly proud. brother, your humble heart, your heart of servingness, keep it going. cos it mkes u shine. thanks for always being in my life, you never fail to rmb me throughout the week, always sharing w me about your feelings and school. truly appreciate it boy!
Kynaston: well, haha, thanks to my mom you were able to hve supper w me. =) glad u were there. you've always been someone i feel so free to share evrything with. you r such a patient listener, and a logical advisor. God certainly put you in my life to mke me smile.
Elijah: =) what can i say? indeed, you never fail to add colour to my life. i'm truly happy our frenship's blossoming. you are always the easy going one.. always saying ok and always willing to give. and u r awesome, always showing how you feel. i'm indeed blessed.
Lincoln: as much as we converse minimally, i'm glad u turned up. =) im so inspired by how much you've grown.. and i truly hve to turn from you too.
Ben: we talk little too.. but i am grateful how you try to shine for God. i feel so sorry for that night, in which u took the wrong bus and all. i want u to knw, im here and i thank u for the friendship.

special note to silvia: thanks for sharing. i;m touched and grateful. may we walk together down heaven's road.
to sonia: hey.. its great having you in my life too. i love evrytime i spend with you and i love you. =)

thatt night, i learnt to eat: tzoot tzoot. lol.
and i learnt loads of games.. =) like the *diu diu* game frm ivan. ahaha. and fuzzy wuzzy! =D
reached home @ 2 am but, was not the least bit tired.
thanks guys. =)

------------- ALL FOR MY BIRTHDAY CREDITS---------

now, what inspired me today..

Wilfred shared: We are like soccer players, like how they are equipped to play on the field, we are fighting in God's battle, in this field of life.

The Armour of God. wow.
i wanna wear that.

the Belt of truth. the breastplate of righteousness. feet fitted with readiness. Shield of Faith. Helmet of Salvation. Sword of the Spirit.

it's so true how important it is to be equipped with all of these in our lives.

What Lubin shared was so true: What if i die tomorrow?
my repentance starts NOW and never is to stop.

it is just so beautiful how this armour is described. imagine, being a soldier of God. That's how i'll look like- with truth, righteousness,readiness, faith, salvation and spirit.

so here i am, i am ready to love God so much that compared to how much i love him, i hate everyone else. i want to carry my cross daily, and walk along with him. Lord, Father, take my hand.

Praying in the spirit on all occasions.

17

to change things that seem hard to change, to make possible the impossible.... to love, to grow, to strengthen, to be a child of God in his image...

When i turn seventeen, i.....
1.pray to be completely dependent on God in my life and resolved.
2.pray to shine in my life as a disciple- in school, in church, in family.
3.pray to be totally humble and nvr fail to share my faith.
4.wanna grow in my friendship with people, be it in church or anywhere else.
5.pray to have a heart of a servant, to serve.
6.pray to love the people around me.
7.pray to walk closely and intimately with my father in heaven.

Turning 17, i...
1.dream to fly!
2.dream to work in God's house.
3.dream to be a news broadcaster.
4.dream to lend a hand and ear to the misfortunate around the world.
5.dream to open a chocolate factory like willy wonka's.
6.dream to be a star!
7.dream to be an angel.
8.dream to be like yo yo ma.

sounds dreamy, but they are all dreams anyway!

When i turn 17, 18, 19.... till as long as live..
i wish, pray, dream....
TO GO TO HEAVEN!

in fact one small wish here,
i want to LOVE mathematics.

also another,
to grow deeper in my relationship with my mom.

another one too,
to solve my grudges and not bear them.

somemore,
i want to see the teens ministry grow and mke it grow as well.

ok.. they are somewhat all my real wishes when i turn 17, so don't laugh!! instead, i ask for prayers.. thanks. =) ahaha.

end of papers

"A man of many companions may come to ruin , but there is a friend who sticks closer than a brother."

Well, just to mark the end of my mid yr exams, i would like to share how i fruitfully commemorated that wonderful day. in fact, my weekend was tremendously splendid! well, it wasnt only the weekends though, the whole week through my exams were, well.. accompanied by God. =) personally, i truly look forward to seeing christians throughout e week and of cos going to church. so it always dampens my spirits a little when i have to go to school for the whole week without seeing thm till friday night and sunday.
oooh well... but tables turned for e past week...

Wednesday at 0900: Fiona went to church rooftop to cram for biology paper. The paper was in the afternnoon at 1, so she apparently had a fair bit of time to study it all in. admidst that pressurising time cramming all the information in, *poof* sharon called and sweetly asked if Fiona wanted lunch. She listened to her stomach, noticed that the gastric juice was creating a tremendous tsunami in her stomach and fervently agreed for lunch to be sent. the awesome sharon, gladly brought food to fiona. how sweet! =) it was around 1200 when she arrived. Fiona hastily gobbled up my food, as she had to catch the bus to get to school lest she'll be late! so off she went..

Wednesday at 1600: Biology paper was over. only one more to go! Chinese. =) so i headed off to church where its my only place of revelry.. i was amazed how calm i was doing the paper. despite not completing it, i felt as if God was holding my hand and wiping the sweat off my brow. =) hee hee. i was sure he was doing tt. okay, opened the doors to temasek rm and tadaaa! familiar faces! shawn seet and andrew. =) a surge of warmth inside me. not long after, my dear jacinda arrived and we studied. we did. =) studied all the way till around 9pm with the company of dearest wai cheng. it indeed was a "happy-study session" tt night. =D I name that Wednesday: Wonderfully wise Wednesday

thursday: Chinese paper and bye to the mid years. *laughs out merrily* i was elated! Utterly thrilled! so Fiona pranced off to cityhall, having planned to meet 3 awesome sisters- Viktoria(from texas), Gwen and Sera. it was really cute how it all went. had lunch.. and we well, planned to go to the Coffee Connoisseur to spend tme after the lunch.. but when we reached the mrt, viktoria suddenly said, "have a great time u guys!", smiling. i was stunned. so were sera and gwen, could sense question marks emerging from their little heads. ahaha. a miscommunication indeed. well, so viktoria had to leave as she had plans. she thot we just were supposed to have lunch tgr.. but anyway... there were still the 3 of us. =) to TCC i went... looking forward to hanging out with these 2. ahaha. one thing, the ambience was fantastic and the company just topped it all. =) we really chatted.. loads. till gwen had to leave. not wanting to go home, I spent the rest of the time with sera at borders! =) we walked and talked. spoke abt things we similarly face.. talked about challenges in life and issues we just never touched on before. i was amazed, and i completely treasured that time cos it was time that was missed for so long.... i name thursday: Totally Tremendous Thursday.

First, a question, are you tired reading it? oh too bad for u, cos im enjoying myself here.. heeh.

Friday: was bored at home, no schoool. but, i had plans, i certainly had. =) A trip to Waicheng's office! it was silvia, jacinda and i.. we ran an errand for her.. was a great errand- A trip to Caldecott Hill-Mediacorp. well, had to get some props for her shooting the next day. frankly, mediacorp isnt tt fantastic at all, was totally run down.. and mundane. couldnt believe tt interesting stuff actually come frm there. BEst thing was, Danny's office was beside waicheng's so we had lots of popping by. =) thn, it was midweek in the evening. yipeee! familiar faces again! how splendid. =D so friday was : Friday Frenzy Full of Fantastic Fun with Friends.

Saturday: nth much, but it was movie weekend! went to watch Just my Luck with felicia samantha and jacinda. =) sat at e front row, straining our necks while watching.. but it was still enjoyable. i was so glad i went out with thm esp samantha. =) cos it was a once in a blue moon thing. heeeeh. thn off to ahma hse. i named tt saturday: superb Saturday.

Sunday: the best day of the week. The day in which God relaxes and hears us sing to him. with the splendid sermon about Love. How to love, i always wonder. or what's the right way to Love? well, indeed, Love is a many splendid things, love lifts us up where we belong. and most importantly, God is love. Loving... gosh ok, i'll blog next time abt love. if i go on, it'll mke another blog. heeh. The events of tt day was called: Sunday Spirit! =)

how amazing God works in my life, where i can see people in my very own family everyday. What's most amazing.. God walks with me forever. there are indeed many things experienced throughout my days and weeks.. but these moments, are something, never to miss and always worth to share... =D

"How can i repay the Lord for all his goodness to me? I will life up the cup of salvation and call on the name of the Lord. "
"Because your love is better than life, my lips will glorify you."

Praise the Lord!