Back

Gosh! im back frm this reallie awesome retreat with the teens to penang. Reason why im writing only now when i actually came back on sunday is becos i fell sick and still am, only tt im much better now.
well, you'll nvr understand the fun i had unless you were there wif me.
We got to knw the teens frm penang and KL and did lotsa charity stuff like cleaning the old folks home, advertising for the HOPE clinic. realllie cool..
it was a great time building frenship wif the other teens... and well, i reallie miss them.. (the kl and penang teens i mean) enjoyed the learning cantonese part, and hanging out with thm part.. =( oh well...
i just cant explain how much ive learnt.. cos its reallie alot! Even with my fellow teen brothers and sisters... i felt much closer to thm too..
Went down to Ipoh oso, to go trek in the caves.. was realie exhilarating.
time reallie flew... but i guess tt how we feel when we are having so much fun.
this experience to penang, will definitely be etched in my mind, in my heart... cos its utterly worth remembering. =) Thank you Lord for making this possible...

craziness

can u believe this? its orchard road for ur infomation. ORCHARD ROAD! ok, im not trying to be this retard or something. but it really has been ages since i've been there! Ages!!! so ok, ytd, i was finally there. Yippeeeee!
so happy that the Os are like over and done. =)
sometimes, i really wonder, how feelings are defined.1. An affective state of consciousness, such as that resulting from emotions, sentiments, or desires,2.Intuitive awareness or aptitude; a feel.
ok, thats frm the dictionary.
haha. but sometimes, feelings just are more complicated. A simple explanation but yet a different taste of it. Get me?
Well, indeed im someone who feels like tremendously. And, oh well, i can say i just feel at e slightect things u can ever imagine. BE it feeling touched, sad blah. but well, dont worry, i just dun feel so much when it cums to anger. but ok, joy.. ya joy oso perks me up almost instantly.
oh well, lately, SOME things made me feel alot. Sad actually, with a tinge of guilt. oh well, just dun wish to talk abt it cos now im talking abt feelings not the situation or plight im in. but truly, its just so hard to face certain feelings and in the end u just get so lost, eventually not knwing how to solve the situation.
well, but i knw, its just most important to knw to do the right thing.
just reallie wish tt i will be understood some how.
well, but i knw, no one understands me better thn God.
ok. enough of sadness.
cos its craziness now.
ORCHARD RD ytd was gr8. so christmassy and all. plus, i get to hang out wif like so many close frens. its great to hve frens around. went to like shop for silvia's tennis skirt, thn went ahead to the coffee dunno wat. forgot the name. think its cofee express or something. went there to rest and wow it sure was cosy in there. wen ate this mud pie and it was yummy!! Sera ate this cute little country pie thingy. which looked really delicious. but i was stuffed with the long john silver lunch i had before and didnt feel like eating. lol. we had real fun helping EJ decide abt quitting his job. gosh, he sure was wavering so much abt it. haiyo, ej, just tell him. I QUIT. simple. lol. but well, in the end, he was really brave and professional to actually mke the resignation call. hahaha. alright, thn we eventually made our way home. and i walked home with ej and sera. haha. so funny, sera finally knew Old Chang Kee's squid head tasted nicer thn the squid meat itself. lol. so well, sera, squid head! remember! hee, i like squid head too.
*****on the phone wif gwen at the moment*****
ok, put down phone already.
she seemed to have a sore throat due to the mud pie she ate ytd. lol
oh well, wish i can go work with her.
ok, so ytd night, ej and sera came to my house. to get the harry potter vcds i promised EJ. so ok, they were standing at e corridoor and my maid got this super absurd shock when she saw thm outside. gosh, it was like so ridiculous. couldnt believe she gets shocked seeing ppl outside e door.
ok so i hve plans today, plans to go out of cos.
too bad, couldnt hang out wif e rest tonight to watch harry potter.. but well, i'll be watching it TMR!!! yipee!!! so happy!!!! =)

alright ending here. i'll be back.
btw, i got this super cool water bottle tt can keep water cold for a LOOONNNNGGG time!!!

A Letter To My Lord

Dear Lord,
Good morning! well, its just a sudden decision here that i just had this urge to type to you. Lord, i truly praise u so much for being there for me, being my Father. Lord, if it wasnt for you, I wouldnt hve gone through Life the way it is now. I would have long been taunted by the obstacles in life and influenced by the strong magnetic pull of the world. But, Lord, its you who guides me through torrential rains and droughts, its you who pull me back when i step too far in into the pit. And Lord, just a big thank you for that.
Well Lord, now, i can say, is a crucial point in my life. A small part it is, but it can make a whole lot of difference in my life- MY O Levels. Lord, its half down, sort of. I still have abt 7 papers more, in four days, and Lord, i truly pray that Lord, you'll give me the wisdom and strength. Becos, truly i need it so much. i pray that i will really finish my exams, praising you, thanking you that i've done well, and not regret becos of this time that you were with me through and through. i knw Lord, that its so much of my own effort too. So Lord, pls guide me t o the way that is right, and bring me away frm temptations and being ill- disciplined.
Lord, i want to keep you first in my life forever, i want to have this awesome relationship with you, that my love for you shall never, at any time, dwindle. Lord, i ask you for now, a small request: Lord, BE with me, to do well please. i need you.so much.
Another request Lord: i pray for many others who are tking there exams now, and also, Lord, please be with evryone.
Thank YOu LOrd, i surrender evrything in to your hands, i love you.
Amen.

Frodo and Sam

Sam: It's like in e great stories, Mr Frodo, the ones tt really mattered. Full of darkness and danger they were. And sometimes, u didn't want to knw the end because until the end, we will be happy. How can the worldgo back to the way it was with so much bad that happened? Whatever may end it, is only a passing thing. The shadow, even darkness must pass. A new day will come. And when the sun shines, it will shine out the clearer. Those were the stories that stayed with you and meant something, even if you were too small to understand why. But i think Mr Frodo, i do understand. i knw the folks in old stories have lots of chances of turning back, only they didn't. They kept going. They were holding on to something.

Frodo: What are we holding on to Sam?

Sam: That there is some good in this world, Mr Frodo, and it's worth fighting for.
(adapted frm a scene from Lord Of The Rings- The Two Towers by Peter Jackson (the movie))written by J R R Tolkien.

sEptemBeR

alright. 1st sept. time is flying swiftly. just don't understand why one day has to hve 24 hrs, a week to hve 7 days, a mth to be 4 weeks and a yr to have 12 mths. cant we have more days? oh well, God made it tt way. haha
knw wat? johnny depp is reallie cool. i mean, who else could be a better actor thn he? gosh. he is awesome. reallie awesome. :)
alright, its so much of fantasy in my head now. cant stop fantasizing. in which i just wish i could stop doing and just go study.
tmr is my bio practical (prelims). its driving my nuts indeed.guess i just gotta cram evrything by today. all the info and stuff. its realli a whole chunk of nuts i hve to rmb.
haha. but well, movies reallie mke me aspire.
tke lord of the rings for example- Even the smallest person can change e course of the future.
Beautifully quoted.
haha.
oh well, just pray so much for strength still.
and well, im still feeling a tinge of floating joy since last week as i hve just mended a broken friendship. heeee.
oh well, gtg. ta.

oh ya? heard of captain jack sparrow? the most respectable pirate ive ever seen. =)

wonka

went to watch charlie and the chocolate factory on 06-08-05
was splendid.
couldnt imagine how wonderful it was,
reallie delighting, intriguing and facinating!
must watch!
cried 3 times, cant believe i did tt.

Willy Wonka, Willy Wonka, the amazing chocolatetier.

Willy Wonka, Willy Wonka, everybody give a cheer.

He is modest, clever and so smart, he barely can restrain it.

With so much generosity, there's no way you can contain it.

To contain it. to contain, to contain, to contain...

Willy wonka, willy wonka, he's e one that u r abt to meet.

Willy wonka, Willy Wonka, he's the genius who just can't be beat.

The magician and chocolate wiz,

He's the best darn guy who ever lived.

Willy Wonka here he is!!

heeeeee. cant stop singing it.
its addictive i can sae.
alright. NAtion's birthday today.
Happy 40th Birthday singapore.
oh well, but all i did was stay in my cage.... wanting so much to fly free.
couldnt even sae HI to e fireworks.
oh well...
till nxt time thn.

life has been well, mundane.
emotional though.
full of ups and downs.
a down is my studies.
think im doomed. reallie doomed.
i need so much strength to fight in this battlefield.

oh well, alright.
ta!~

seek and save e lost

today's monday... ytd was sunday obviously..
oh well, ytd was a rather emotional day for me though..
cried alot... brimmed wif tears gushing out of my eyes like a broken tap..
i need a plumber!!!!
was e farewell cum graduation ceremony for e graduating teens moving on to campus.. miss thm loads.. i will..
there is this sense of lost and sadness in me...
just needa pray alot..

today, fair day.. just dunno why, feeling abit lethargic.
learnt a new word frm alden: egregious. lol. which means, shocking/ remarkable...
oh gosh, finally, finished reading my harry potter bk today.. can bk 7 come out now!? feel so anxious to knw wat happens nxt..
but well, this bk's reallie emotional at the end.. shedded a tear or two when dumbledore died, w the funeral and all.. and some last lines in e bk were really moving..
cant get over it..
ahhhhh.

alright, cant let my emotions overwhelm me...
cos i realise tt nxt week's my common test and there are lots to study..
moreover, the will be 2 tests on wed. haiy...
well, it all starts frm sch, for me to shine for God..
so, i reallie hope... tis time i will mke improvements..
reallie wanna have a heart to study hard...

pray so much for evryone.~

bish.an

it is well, wif my soul...
oh well.. the weather has been rather hesitant.. wavering between rain or shine..
haha.
had a spleendid time today..
cant believe i spent the afternoon in bishan.. :D
nice place it is..
went to peiling's hse.. which was ever nice.. (scooby was like licking my hand e whole time)
had a great time watching her cook and to savour her cooking.. heee
well, jasmine and sera couldnt go over to watch p0assion of christ.. so, as i was rather hmmm, soft.. in a way.. i didnt dare to actually watch it yet.. not prepared mentally i can sae.. haha
so well, watch the Divine Secrets Of Ya Ya Sisterhood wif peiling instead.. so sweeet.. filled wif humour and a tinge of touchy scenes...
reallie had a blast..
went to J8 for dinner wif Mom and sister..
shopped for awhile and all.. =)
oh well, will be having farewell tmr...
just hope it wont be too emotional for me...
control control... i must.
alright.
ta!`

wet day

morning: rain poured when we were all at the quadrangle.. had a sum sort of mass evacuation i might sae.. lol
oh well, didnt see mr mok hsu pan today.. cos no english lesson.. but willl be having this test tmr.. just pray so much for the strength to do it well... haha. my english reallie is deteriorating. dunno wats wrong..
did several lab work today... fixed electrical circuits during physics..and sliced peas during bio.. was reallie great hands on and all... haha.
Chem is like a flop. so.. aRGH! im speechless.
today has been a rather long day for me... wif a reallie successful completion of the physics wksts during e remedial... was reallie quality time spent. =)
went back to string rm aft tt to visit my cello instructor.. MR chua.. he is so nice. he offered to teach me aft my Os... pleading me to continue.. looking forward to it i am, and well, discussed w him a little.. but where can i get e $$$$ haha.
need my mom's approval surely...
ok, btw.. today's racial harmony... which doesnt seem like one in my sch.. addis' and lincoln's sch had e privilege to like wear ethnic clothes to sch to celebrate... but my sch!?! only acting blur.. how indifferent!
oh well....
i am hungry.

ta!~

wat a night.

gd evening.
part of my heart chipped off just.. guess its mended =) i think.
settled my dinner... wif a bowl of mee soto. yum~
gosh, head's gonna burst frm overflowing info -- ammonia, sulphuric acid,electrolysis..
God help me please!!!!!
oh well,i will try my best.
took sum time off studying to read my potter bk. gosh, such a thrill.. reallie compels me to read on..
Filled wif bemusement, interest, and surprise and love for e bk!
indeed, its a thumbs up!!!! =)
well, but now, im keeping it close for e moment.. hve to do my TYS..
received a call frm addis.. hey fren, tke care.. and wel, patience reallie..
shall not sae his plight.. but well, he is one cool fren =)
tmr, guess its gonna be another long and hectic day..
long day as i hve a physics remedial planned in e afternoon..
but oh well.. faith is wat it reallie tkes to stay focus and MOVE ON!!!
Lord, help me, to be faithful..

todays ivan's bbirthday too.. didnt give him his gift though.. shall give it to him on fri =)

stop right here.
cheers.

Wednesday Afternoon

wAt a gloomy wednesday afternoon.. dead beat. So sleepy. haha. but, i just have no choice but to stay awake and CRAM!!! tmr's chemistry test.. *yawn* but well, ms low, i will do my best =)