craziness

can u believe this? its orchard road for ur infomation. ORCHARD ROAD! ok, im not trying to be this retard or something. but it really has been ages since i've been there! Ages!!! so ok, ytd, i was finally there. Yippeeeee!
so happy that the Os are like over and done. =)
sometimes, i really wonder, how feelings are defined.1. An affective state of consciousness, such as that resulting from emotions, sentiments, or desires,2.Intuitive awareness or aptitude; a feel.
ok, thats frm the dictionary.
haha. but sometimes, feelings just are more complicated. A simple explanation but yet a different taste of it. Get me?
Well, indeed im someone who feels like tremendously. And, oh well, i can say i just feel at e slightect things u can ever imagine. BE it feeling touched, sad blah. but well, dont worry, i just dun feel so much when it cums to anger. but ok, joy.. ya joy oso perks me up almost instantly.
oh well, lately, SOME things made me feel alot. Sad actually, with a tinge of guilt. oh well, just dun wish to talk abt it cos now im talking abt feelings not the situation or plight im in. but truly, its just so hard to face certain feelings and in the end u just get so lost, eventually not knwing how to solve the situation.
well, but i knw, its just most important to knw to do the right thing.
just reallie wish tt i will be understood some how.
well, but i knw, no one understands me better thn God.
ok. enough of sadness.
cos its craziness now.
ORCHARD RD ytd was gr8. so christmassy and all. plus, i get to hang out wif like so many close frens. its great to hve frens around. went to like shop for silvia's tennis skirt, thn went ahead to the coffee dunno wat. forgot the name. think its cofee express or something. went there to rest and wow it sure was cosy in there. wen ate this mud pie and it was yummy!! Sera ate this cute little country pie thingy. which looked really delicious. but i was stuffed with the long john silver lunch i had before and didnt feel like eating. lol. we had real fun helping EJ decide abt quitting his job. gosh, he sure was wavering so much abt it. haiyo, ej, just tell him. I QUIT. simple. lol. but well, in the end, he was really brave and professional to actually mke the resignation call. hahaha. alright, thn we eventually made our way home. and i walked home with ej and sera. haha. so funny, sera finally knew Old Chang Kee's squid head tasted nicer thn the squid meat itself. lol. so well, sera, squid head! remember! hee, i like squid head too.
*****on the phone wif gwen at the moment*****
ok, put down phone already.
she seemed to have a sore throat due to the mud pie she ate ytd. lol
oh well, wish i can go work with her.
ok, so ytd night, ej and sera came to my house. to get the harry potter vcds i promised EJ. so ok, they were standing at e corridoor and my maid got this super absurd shock when she saw thm outside. gosh, it was like so ridiculous. couldnt believe she gets shocked seeing ppl outside e door.
ok so i hve plans today, plans to go out of cos.
too bad, couldnt hang out wif e rest tonight to watch harry potter.. but well, i'll be watching it TMR!!! yipee!!! so happy!!!! =)

alright ending here. i'll be back.
btw, i got this super cool water bottle tt can keep water cold for a LOOONNNNGGG time!!!

A Letter To My Lord

Dear Lord,
Good morning! well, its just a sudden decision here that i just had this urge to type to you. Lord, i truly praise u so much for being there for me, being my Father. Lord, if it wasnt for you, I wouldnt hve gone through Life the way it is now. I would have long been taunted by the obstacles in life and influenced by the strong magnetic pull of the world. But, Lord, its you who guides me through torrential rains and droughts, its you who pull me back when i step too far in into the pit. And Lord, just a big thank you for that.
Well Lord, now, i can say, is a crucial point in my life. A small part it is, but it can make a whole lot of difference in my life- MY O Levels. Lord, its half down, sort of. I still have abt 7 papers more, in four days, and Lord, i truly pray that Lord, you'll give me the wisdom and strength. Becos, truly i need it so much. i pray that i will really finish my exams, praising you, thanking you that i've done well, and not regret becos of this time that you were with me through and through. i knw Lord, that its so much of my own effort too. So Lord, pls guide me t o the way that is right, and bring me away frm temptations and being ill- disciplined.
Lord, i want to keep you first in my life forever, i want to have this awesome relationship with you, that my love for you shall never, at any time, dwindle. Lord, i ask you for now, a small request: Lord, BE with me, to do well please. i need you.so much.
Another request Lord: i pray for many others who are tking there exams now, and also, Lord, please be with evryone.
Thank YOu LOrd, i surrender evrything in to your hands, i love you.
Amen.