metanoia

"Life is useless, i have nth to live for"
"I'd rather die"
"Whats my purpose in life? suffer i guess"
" Life is stupid"

sound familiar? i guess its common these days.. how people actually think life can be so miserable..
for me, i admit, life can be a real chore itself.
life IS tough.
a peculiar feeling though, gazing at my vicinity from the corridor of my flat, i see greeeney, birds, the humongous blue sky that suspends over me. Not only that, but also the lovely fluffy clouds that float like marshmallows or cotton candy. Hey, thinking abt all these, i don't see life useless!
Its crazy how God gives us challenges in our lives, that sometimes, it really is challenging to think only of its beauty. Well, surely, even the most hideous thing has its own charm..
haha well, but the fact is that the earth and its wonderful nature is so beautiful by its own. Captivating and tranquil.
Its actually more sense that we humans are the ones pollute the beautiful earth God created. BEsides, he created nature first, didnt he?
Well, God created us because he loved us. BUt here i am, polluting it with my sins and discontentment.
Lord, father, thank you so much for the blessings you've showered me.

Now, its so true, whenever i go home, i look at every part of my hse with a different meaning and different perspective after shawn wooten's msg.
It just convinces me tt, in everywhere, there is a purpose, and from every mistake, is a chance to change.

The past week i had was mundane i can say.. lotsa thinking abt which school i wanna put in my choices.. but i knw God made me put what i chose.. so, no regrets.
sometimes, i just feel so much gratitude towards God, that i do not knw how to express it..

Father, thank you so much for ur flawless love for me.
Your love is patient, your love is kind , it doesnt envy, it doesnt boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, not self seeking, not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs.Your love doesnt delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, trusts, hopes, perseveres.
Your love for me, NEVER FAILS.

O lord! i dont deserve it at all! but yet i am receiving it all!!
I knw lord, my life is never miserable because of you..
Besides, i am a foreigner in this land, my home is with you, in HEAVEN!

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