Lord have mercy

Reflecting upon the pass year, looking back...
life wasn't a bed of roses..
neither was i a good student, daughter, friend etc..
On the whole, i just was not carrying out my duties to the fullest.
Indeed, many examples i can state:
-I didnt hand in all my work in school and had to be kicked out of the class to complete them.
-Of all my A Maths tests i sat for, i'm sure i only passed one. (matrices)
-I was bottom 5 in class for physics.
-I had a major quarrel with my close friend for months.
-I argued with my mother at least once a week.
-I slept in class.
-I gossiped.
-I did horrible for my prelims.
-I skipped remedials.
-I was rude and did not care about people's feelings.
-I struggled tremendously with my studies and walk with God.
Boy, there were even more..
Was i worthy at all to be a child of God?
not at all.

But yet, guess what happened this yr:
-God allowed me to serve as an usher.
-Silvia started re-studying the bible.
-Ivan, my mango, got baptised.
-I did well for my O level exams.
-Silvia, my cherry, got baptised.
-God allowed me to share for communion so that i can really feel grateful.
-my Ah kong got baptised.
-My appeal to Meridian JC was successful.

comparing the baddies i did and the blessings he showered me, the blessings are indeed so much more abundant and encouraging than the baddies.
Hey, and its only march!
Wee keong preached,
Who needs mercy?
yes, it is so true, I NEED MERCY!
And truly, God has shown me so much mercy.
I wasnt the ideal Fiona the past year, i must have broken his heart many times.
yet, his unfailing love for me, showed me mercy.
Not only was his blood shed for me thousands of years ago, his blessings are overflowing.
I do not deserved his love, but he has given me mercy.
With his mercy, comes my gratitude.

Thank You Lord.