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peek a boo.....!
alright =) here i am, back.!!! its been several days since ive penned my blog..
well, i was busy.. so, my apologies.
heh heh
Well, was looking after the little ones in my mom's childcare.. Gosh, is this a job at all? i just couldnt believe it! its just so fun and exhilarating! heeee.
oh well...
im just so happy that im like sitting in bible studies recently...
and im just looking so forward to the bible talk tt the 3 of us will be leading.. AWESOME!
well, just reallie unsure abt what lies ahead.
results, especially.
on sunday, while i was ushering, i got to tlk to this brother, xavier frm the east... (oso usher) and he said TP's good.. thn kynaston also added tt he wanted to go there.
at that instance i reallie felt my heart squirm.. just an odd feeling.. i thot, " what if i reallie can't make it to JC? will i reallie have to settle in a poly? no way, what a disppointment!"
well, its not tt i hate poly or despise it or sumthing... just tt, jc is my dream! it is!
the truth will be revealed real soon.. and i just hope tt i will jump for joy upon seeing my results and cry not becos im sad but just out of pure elation!
all i can do now, is to lay it all down to God.
at the same time, to really put effort into the teens ministry..
i pray so hard for all e teens...
pray so much for the unity of us all...
and our friendship..
just cant wait for fri and sun to arrive...
heee, and im going to usher again.. hopefully, i will not get so confused this time.. its like iim just so dumb at handling the trays or bread and wine.. but well, =) i love this job! reallie want to do it well...

well, at this moment, i feel so much in my heart.. lots of joy, bemusement, wonder, confusion and a little tinge of sadness.. if u asked me why, i would sae, i reallie dont knw.
there is so much in this world, the ugliness of it, the horror within i dun wish to know.. despite it being so tempting many times.. its just a mask, shielding all the motive and emptiness inside it. cos thats what the world is, full of emptiness and fill with vile and despicable baddies, not tt there arent any angels.
being in it, only makes me aimless and lost.
but im happy, God is here to pull be back lest i fall too far into the nothingness of the world.
The road to heaven, although tough, is a path i will tke and shall nvr regret.

ta!